Dawn of a Graveyard Melody

Aloha, Welcome Back, Good Job....

Ok...Highlights for today...nothing...today is a lazy day...just chilling out...

I'm worried for Lianne...I wonder if she got hit by the NS...if she did get hit, I'm sure it wont abode well with her mom...I'll pray today that she wont get hit...

Hmmmm wonder what else...today...College...Dota...CS...Good Job....thats about it...

Today is damnnnn blank day, nothing that needs to be mentioned, except that today, a friend of mine, told me that she saw Sue Yi today, and she was damn sad...she looked depressed, and that hurted me...Its strange...it hurts but it doesnt hurt in the way it suppose to anymore...its just a graveyard now...and my grave is the only one in that graveyard...

So yes, I read Lisan blog just like, 5 minutes ago, and apparently our day is the same...just...mellow and empty....yeah...ok...

Ok nothing else worth mentioning...

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Today's Memory Shall Be On
My bad boy days
A Time Of Learning
A Time of Reflection

Ok this started when I was F1, when I was in Sri Cempaka, basically this is all about freaking peer preassure. I mixed with friends outside Sri Cempaka, got into the wrong bunch of people, and ba da bing ba da boom, I became a freaking playboy.

I learnt from Foreign Friends what to say to a girl, Powerful and Seductive, Sweet and Caring

I learnt how to treat a girl from Local Friends, Pro-active and Loving, Gentle and Kind

I learnt how to break a girls heart from both....Fast and Hard, Unforgiving and Harsh...

And yeah, I went around, telling girls what they want to hear, doing things they desire...from roses to teddy bears to calls to dates...I did it all...and it was in this period I learn the ways and hows of a girl....seriously....

I seperated my school life from my outside life, nobody in Sri Cempaka knew what I do outside the gates of that school. I acted dumb and foolish in Sri Cempaka, because I didnt care about the people in that school except for a rare few.

So yes, I broke a few girl's hearts, I said everything sweet and beautiful, and I made them fall for me. I did everything for the sake of making a girl fall in love with me, and I broke their hearts because of peer preassure. Now besides this playboy life, I also lead a gangster life, I learnt the ways of the underground during those days, and I wont go into them, because that would be leaking out secrets...

But I can tell you, I know my stuff...

So moving on, I was a casanova, but that all stopped when I hit 15. Because of several reason...

One: Even when I was acting a casanova, I felt I couldnt break a girl's heart, and I only broke 4 girl's heart due to peer preassure, and I'm sorry to those 4 girls. Jean, Natalie, Nicole and Sim Wai...

Two: I found myself protecting them more that breaking them...I'll explain this later...

Three: I felt more at peace when I made them smile then cry...

Ok, about number 2, here is the most important part of my bad boy days...I seemed that I would protect a girl rather than hurt a girl, this usually happened when I was not in the company of my playboy peers. One of the most memorable event that happened was with a girl, I cannot remember her name, but she was this very cute and innocent girl, alot of guys liked her, and this caused some bitchy girls to get all fucked up jealous...so they would bully and hex her alot, and whats worst is that this innocent girl would just listen to them, because she was soo innocent she didnt know she was being bullied, she thought they were her friends...wtf.com...

So one day, they were laughing at her...and shit...and I got pissed when I heard about this...and that time, I was the BITCH GROUP'S PUBLIC ENEMY NUMBER ONE...because deep down I didnt go well with their ways, even if I was a playboy and popular, I just didnt want to mix with them, so this caused a faction split and I was always on the opposite side agaisnt them. So yeah, one day, I went out with a few normal friends, and I saw them at Mid Valley, Brew Ball. They were laughing at this innocent girl, and she was all sooo blur and she just took it. I got fucking pissed off, so I went up to their table and started laughing...

They were like, dumbstruck and started hexing me too, and started like bitching on me...I started laughing harder...and then they asked:

A bitch : "what the fuck are you laughing about?"

Me: "hahaha...well you bitches laugh at me and her because we are different from you all...but I laugh because you all the fucking same..."

GOOD JOB, I took that innocent girl's hand and I walked off with her to my table with my boys...the bitches were pissed and after bitching about my stab to them, they moved off. And yeah I coupled with that innocent girl. But later I broke up with her, but I left her in good hands...a real gentleman...so yeah think about it all...I am build up like that, I rather protect a girl than hurt a girl, and it was all peer preassure...so I stopped being all that bad when I was 15, and I decided to be a hopeless romantic...a gentleman...and I am...today I stand as that...and proud to be that...