Ola, and welcome back...

God its been quite awhile since I blogged aint it?

Anyway how deee dooo...its 4am in the morning, my body refuses to let me sleep...but nvm about that...hows life? good, no? bad, yes? well as long as you are breathing theres something left, I'm sure...

I've been not blogging for awhile now, guess my emotional strength as of late hasnt been strong...nor stable, but its stronger now~

Very painfully and very reluctantly I've tore vengeance and hate out of my heart, to let go of something is never easy, especially when that something has fueled your existance for awhile...cmon those of you who know what I'm talking about~ let me hear you say it, good job.com....

Months has passed since I was at my weakest emotional state, giving in to every temptation and pursuing alot of things in the name of vengeance, but I've learnt to let it go...most reluctantly might I add...for example...the death of Kelly, my most beloved childhood friend, and Jennifer Seako my most cherished friend...

Wounds close and bleeding hearts eventually bleed out...and everything in between, time heals it along the way...so I guess what I am saying is...I dont have a reason anymore to feel tormented...

As for you fellow readers that been keeping track of my blog, you'd be happy to know that Sue-yi has totally been erased from my life, and no, it isnt the same as before, its for real...because I've let go, and I'm not going back, not anymore...and dont worry I'll explain everything one day about this...but for now, let there be LIGHT!!! freedom...pure freedom...from the chains of torment...nuff said?

Again, as you fellow readers, Lianne has never been mentioned much in my blog, and I think that is going to change one day...but alas its too early in the morning to blog about this large chunck of emo crap...so as for the moment, I leave with but a summary...I had nothing but the feeling of vengeance for her, I wanted to exact much of it accuatly upon her, my will had been twisted and bent all on rage and hate towards her...THAT WAS BEFORE~ now...in summary...I've learnt to let go of vengeance...very fucking painfully...but yeah...gotta let it go...just gotta let it go...bah~ I'll explain it all another day lol~

ok moving on

After all this while, feeling completly tormented, and just feeling emotional empty and hollow...I died to live again...these words can never be more true as I found a reason...A simple reason that makes everything that once plagued me...just unlock like a clock...

Esadora~

Muahahahaha I will blog about this soon...till then people~ ola...

I know I know...I keep u wanting more...*hears the crowd roar*

OMG OMG OMG I'm such an egoist when I'm blogging~~~~SLAP ME!!! LOL!!!